Fuck.

Salah satu hal di dunia ini yg paling gue benci adalah ngebenci orang. Dari dulu gue gak suka sama hal-hal negatif macem gituan. Tapi lain lagi ceritanya kalo tuh orang bener-bener kelewatan.

Nah, ini ada satu orang yang hebat banget bisa bikin gue gak suka buanget sama kelakuannya. Sebenernya gue gamau punya perasaan kayak gini apalagi sama temen sendiri, temen sekelas pula. Soalnya gue yakin kok, sebenci apapun gue sama dia pasti suatu saat nanti gue ngebutuhin dia. Tapiiiii yg namanya perasaan itu bisa dateng kapan aja, 'kan?

Dari pertama sih emang guenya udah nggak mood ngapa-ngapain. Dan lebih-lebih-lebih gak mood lagi pas dia mulai ngomong yg enggak-enggak. Mulainya gini nih, gue kan lagi buka laptop trus main game (audio muted). Pas player-gue kalah, gue ketawa. Temen cowok gue bilang, "Hayoo, liat apa itu sampek ketawa-ketawa sendiri?". Dan apa tanggapan dia? "Halah, paling juga liat 'kek begituan'. Bocah itu kan cuman luar aja keliatan suci, tapi hatinya......... paling gak sama kayak yg keliatan dari luar.". Jleb, gue ngerti. Gue diem. Posthink: dia cuman bercanda. Habis itu beberapa kali lagi dia bilang sesuatu hal yg sama. Gue tetep diem, tapi lama-lama risih juga tau gaaa :@ Oke, Gue ngerasa mulai jengah pas temen cowok gue bilang, "Gak main sama temenmu?" trus dia nambahin, "Emang dia punya temen?". Shit!!! Sumpah deh, udah pengen nabok mulut tuh bocah! Kalo gue mau, gue bisa kok bales lebih parah, lebih jleb dari itu. Kalo gue mau.

Gue yg udah panasss punya niat mau keluar kelas, mau ngademin pikiran. Tapi apa yg dia lakuin??? Dia ngehina gue-lagi. Yang ini menurut gue parah. Sakit deh pokoknya kalo diinget-inget.

Gue bener-bener gak tau ya, apa yg dia pikirin pas ngomong kek gitu? Apa emang dia cuman bercanda? Menurut gue itu udah lebih dari cukup kelewatan. Kalo dia gak bercanda, apa dia nggak liat wajah gue yg udah kecut gitu ngeliat dia??? Ini guenya yg pinter nyembunyiin ekspresi apa dianya emang gak peka samasekali gitu!? Sengaja maksudnya hah?!! Siapa sih yg gak marah dilakuin kayak gitu? Sengaja lagi. Yg ngelakuin itu emang gapunya perasaan. Gak mikir gimana hati orang yg diejek. Dan ini bukan yg pertama kali. Camkan!

Sekarang gue paham banget perasaan temen gue pas dihina di dpn mata. Temen? Iyaaaa! Ternyata gak cuman gue yg pernah kek gitu. Temen gue sampek nangis. Gimana gak nangis, orang yg diejek itu bkn nyangkut dia aja. Tapi sampek ke ortu juga! Bayangin! BITCH !!!

Mungkin situ gak ngerasa apa-apa, tapi seseorang pernah bilang ke gue, "Orang yg pernah disakiti pasti akan lebih inget daripada orang yg menyakiti."

PETERPAN

That blue sky remind me,
To the sky above that beauty land
There, the place when you gave your first smile to me
Place where we met for the first time
I feel wind blow softly
As it return all memories I have try to forget
I remember you
You know, Pete? It's hurt cause I can't turn back to that time
When I was with you
I too miss those days
Saw you flew with Tinkerbell to that place, Neverland
You came to me, and said 'hi!' to me, as we have known each other for a long time
You said that you are my Peterpan, boys who stop in the middle of the time
Peterpan, someone who will belong with me and always love me
You say it and smile, I remember
And you know what?
At that time I wanna saying that I want to fly to the sky when you say it
It felt like I was happiest girl in the world
You held my hand, asked me to stay
Why did you won't let me go?
You just gave me a little smile
Smile that will I remember as Peterpan's forever
'You are more beautiful than Wendy or Cinderella'
Now time has changed
How much I changed, I never knew
But I'm sure, my Peterpan would not change little bit
You're will be only one Peterpan who will I remember in my life
Only you
Now, I'm in the last memory about you
I can't be brave to open it and I won't
I will never read all sad words there
Sad memory about us
And I will erase it
Our story will never end Pete, believe me
You promised me, we will meet again, oneday
I'm here and I believe you
I'm waiting for you, My Peterpan